between

sometimes i feel as though i'm between.  not really inbetween because i'm not in the middle. just between- city and small town, woods and buildings, unknown and familiar, challenges and comfort, freedom and responsibility.  i travel back and forth every day to the small town where i once lived and it is there where i work, see friends, share love, take pictures of the fields and feel at home and then to the city where i live, learn about myself, take time to think, read, make art, enjoy the culture and feel at home. it's almost like i live two lives, each filling a place in me, satisfying different needs.  some of those are obvious, on the surface and easily defined yet some are unknown. in time though, i think they'll become clear. i suppose if i can be patient enough i'll realize them even if i'm between a small town girl and a city girl.