me

it's me wandering about
looking around
it's me wondering
where i should be
it's me thinking about this
for too long
it's me holding things
and rearranging
it's me reading words
getting lost in the story
it's me wanting to be
here and somewhere else
it's me walking
on the sidewalks
it's me working
but my mind keeps wandering
it's me procrastinating
needing to finish
it's me being late
and wishing for difference
it's me listening to music
to escape
it's me as a city girl
trying to figure it all out.

list four

morning
sounds
wondering
birds
talking
washing
faucets
footsteps
barking
laughing
breezy
thoughts
typing
parking
closing
opening
steaming
whistling
singing
showering
leaving
returning

spring

finally, it's here. the best time of the year and the most beautiful time in the city. lots to do and see- summer music, eating outside, walking through the alleyways (so much better than taking the sidewalks which can be pretty crowded sometimes and they're all so different), sitting on the balcony, watching all the wonderful gardens bloom into life. i'm happy here, mostly, although i miss my friends the most and wish i could wave a magic wand and bring them all downtown.  i've connected with a few people since being back but since i'm not here all the time, it's tricky to meet with different schedules. but, it's okay really as i don't mind running around by myself, riding my bike or my longboard. hmmm, it's a new city thing- finding just a little bit of courage to ride her on the sidewalks but i will. i will. i'll just just keep telling myself that. oh and another neat city thing- watching fireworks out on my little balcony from the big stadium nearby after a baseball game. i forgot about that special little city thing until just now.