change

I'm sitting here in this big house in this small town with chilly toes, still dressed from work today despite this late hour.  I should have gone to bed a long time ago- my daughter, unable to sleep earlier but finally dozing now, is curled up in my warm bed. Even though I want to crawl in beside her because she is the one constant in my life, I remain awake, change weighing heavily on my mind.  It's one thing to dream of a place, a lifestyle, for a time wondering when and if it might happen. And another all together when, just like that, things begin to happen and one realizes that thoughts in dreams really can come, quickly, when least expected. Change is there, ready and waiting. Change from small town to big city.  Change from big house to small villa.  Change to one day soon a city girl.